A little kid on the first day of school, only every day!

I'm going to be up front here. I really have no idea which direction this post is going to take. Is it going to be happy? Funny? Depressing? Insightful? Well, let's shoot for something optimistic.

I discovered a new opportunity today. In N'Djamena, Chad, there is an embassy. Not just any embassy, a US Embassy. That's right. In the city where I intend on spending my years as a missionary, there is a little slice of America. Needless to say, I'm pretty jazzed. I thought that I was going to have to completely forgo America and all of it's little (or big) happenings. Nope :) I get to be only a few miles away from a piece of home.

I want to work there. Like....really badly. Being a missionary isn't exactly monetarily secure, and I plan on having and adopting kids and I really want them to have a bright future. But honestly, I'd work in the Embassy for free. If I were to work there, I have no doubt in my mind that I'd absolutely love my job. It wouldn't be a job for me, really. It'd be more like a hobby, something fun that makes me really want to get up in the morning. I'd feel like a little kid on their first day of school. Except, this would be an every day experience.

I can't really describe my jubilation when I came across this little gem of information. (That rhymed. Jubilation-information :D). I don't think a "chill pill" could even tone down my excitement. Working there wouldn't make me shirk my missionary duties, of course. My missionary work does and will always come first. But what if I could have my cake and eat it too? (Mmmmm, cake.) What if I could immerse myself within the cultures of Africa and still have my little semblance of home? Or what used to be my home?

There's just one little problem: politics and religion don't mash up well in my book. I don't want to compromise aspects of my Faith in order to live out a life through politics. Maybe I'm just being paranoid (which is almost certainly the case), but still. If I could do both, I can't even fathom how happy that would make me.

I really want this. I know that it will be tough, but I haven't been this excited/terrified of something since I first found out I was going to be a missionary. I'm asking for prayers at this point. Please, pray that the right path unfolds for me. I'm not asking that you pray that I get what I want, I'm asking that you pray for what God wants and that I'll accept it gladly and with open arms. I know that what I want and what God wants can certainly be two different things right now, but I ask that they mend together for the future.

Thank you :) Love you all!